January 2011
December 2010
day 30 — whatever tickles your fancy
day 29 — hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365...
there’s nothing i can really settle on, because i know i shouldn’t be anxious for the future. but i hope that i can use my time wisely and discipline myself.
day(s) 26-28 — this year, in great detail
Day 26 — Your week, in great detail Day 27 — This month, in great detail
i don’t want to do the day or month, so i’m only doing the year. it’s hard to remember everything, because some things just don’t seem significant to remember. mostly for this year, i felt in a constant rut, go to school, get home, babysit, homework, computer, and sleep. there were those...
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i hate hiding how i feel.
and it’s times like these, that i realize that i’m alone…
should've known this would happen.
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you really don't know how that makes me feel.
going out with alex.
finally some time to get out.
it's scary when you can easily fall into habits,...
nothing.
i hate when you do this.
it’s really freaking annoying.
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feelings.
it was a summer night and i was sleeping. the moon was out, my head was beaming. i looked at my dreams like they were gold. amazing feelings draw within me. all my conflicts slip beneath me, like the spirit of a song; or like the feeling of a lover in your arms. but ever since that night and after, the dreams i had i can’t recapture, and it brings me down so low. the more i search the less...
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it hurts when you say you don't know who i am...
when you say i’m not the child i was before. when you hit me, and feel nothing. when you throw me out, because you don’t want me.
i will always hold those scars, because they hold every secret.
need to get things off my chest.
for those who are actually interested, ask anything you want in my ask & everything will be truthful. it’s nice to say the truth for a while, it relieves stress sort of.
i wish i could forget some things.
because it hurts to be reminded of what hurt you the most in the past.
i wonder what it’d be like if you were still here…would there be a chance of actual happiness? but at the same time, i’m thankful that you’re not here anymore, because i wouldn’t have the people i have now. sometimes, i really think that one person in your life could alter the rest of your life....
tell me,
what lasts forever?
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thoughts - 3:45 a.m.
For once in my life, can I have the ability to feel the things worth living for? I’m afraid that this numbness will be all that’s left in this empty pit that can’t be filled. I don’t want to consume these things, yet I still do—only for a moment of limited happiness. My mind…it’s lost.
“Deep is my heart In a soul that cannot speak For it fears the loss And pain The world pronounces Let my soul...
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truth be said,
i’m unhappy, and i don’t know why…
